insecurities.

Lately I've been considering how often we (human beings) are prone to react based on our insecurities. It's a natural occurrence. No one likes to feel vulnerable, & trusting that other people will be sincere feels like a game of Russian Roulette. I have gotten so bad at not opening up to people that a barricade of "introversion" (which is apparent considering the manner of this blog) has established itself around me. I try to let my strengths outshine my uncertainty, which generally causes me to become apprehensive knowing that it will only be a matter of time before a person hits that vulnerable point in me. I am always in my head, in fact a close friend of mine is continually telling me to "relax". He's right. All good things that come in life are a result of some level of risk. We have to put ourselves out there to experience what it really is to be alive. The greatest reminder is that God chose me. Catherine Kulhman stated that "God isn't looking for perfect vessels, He's looking for yielded vessels." So for those times when I don't feel like I'm good enough or when I focus heavily on my shortcomings or when I analyze situations to death & fear that somewhere along the road I could have done something differently to achieve another outcome I just need to take a deep breath, relax, & remember that He chose me...& to Him I am perfect.